kembali..

back in Moscow..

had a great time in Egypt.. rindu~~~~

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leaving Moscow..

assalamualaikum w.b.t

finally the day come... 21/01/2010... just 0, 1 and 2...

so, today I'm gonna leave Moscow, going to a place somewhere about 4-hours journey by plane...

hehe....

so, I'm not gonna be online for 10 days I guess.. specifically, to update this blog.. InsyaAllah, once I come back from there, I'll write about my journey and experience...

so, off till 30.01.2010

till then..

daa~~~

(p/s: wish me a pleasant journey!!)

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the last stage before temporary freedom...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Thank you to Allah s.w.t for his bless of life that I'm still able to live as a normal human and the best thing of all, I'm still alive.. Feel so grateful..

This is gonna be just a short post since my critical schedule only allows me to write a post maximumly in 10 minutes..

Tomorrow I'm going to have final exam for this semester and it will be the last stage after passing the earlier 2 stages of examination with flying colors..

However, that might not worth it if I don't do well tomorrow.. And tomorrow's test will be held orally.... That adds up the nervousness that I'm having right now... Oral exam is so different when we were to compare it with written exam.. In oral exam, the faster you answer a question in just hole-in-one attempt will give you the best credit.. This might be a big advantage to those who think fast... To those who still we call intelligent but the output production is kinda slow, this might be unfair...

Oral examination is very subjective and a tool that you really need so that you can get a better mar other than knowledge is LUCK.. without luck, knowledge means nothing in oral exam...

so whoever read this, a wish of luck will be so much appreciated.. I still don't gain enough strength right now, and the build up will continue until 4 am I guess.. As usual, last minute preparation require extra effort and not to mention, SACRIFICE!!!

by the way, I can't wait for the exam to finish tomorrow because after that, TEMPORARY FREEDOM is what I will have.... and bigger plan is gonna come, with fun and new experience..

okay.. take care everyone..

till then

~daa

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Bye2 Volgorians

salam w.b.t

huhh.. cepatnya.. dah 8hb..

x sedar pulak.. exam pown just around the corner.. on 11 and 15 January.. but satu subjek je.. Bioorganic Chemistry.. study pown x complete lg.. insyaAllah, manfaatkan masa yang ada.. jangan nanti menyesal tak tentu pasal, just because attitude diri sendiri..

so, what's up?.. hehe.. suddenly rasa rajin pulak nak update blog.. actually, there's nothing important to share pown.. just because tangan ni gatal sangat nak menaip, tu yg tba2 je nak post entry baru..

so, fikir n fikir again, nak post pasal what's happening on 6th January 2010..

ok2.. apa terjadi???? ada org kahwin? mati? lahir? ada negara kena bom???

ok2.. ni bukan perkara besar pown untuk satu dunia tau.. haha

ok2, actually, masa 6hb tu, budak2 Volgo (all girls) yg telah bercuti selama lebih kurang 5 hari 4 malam di Moscow ni kembali semula ke tempat kesayangan mereka, nun jauh di Selatan Russia, Volgograd.. perjalanan dah la lama giler.. minimum 18 hours, maximum 30 hours.. OMG, boleh sakit bontot duduk dlm train tu.. but xpe, ade katil pown..

so, ktorg pergilah hntr dorg.. x semua pun hantar.. but hampir most of us la...

then sampai je kat station Paveletskaya around 7.30 pm, so yg kwn2 ktorg yg girls Moscow and Volgograd bersembang and berpelukan la.. maklumla, bukan selalu dpt jumpe ni.. tangisan tu normal la.. Peluk sana, peluk sini, cium sana, cium sini, akhirnya tumpah air mata.. ada yg nangis terang-terangan and ada yg just nangis dalam hati.. camne aku tau ek?? aku tau la...

so, at platform no. 3, pukul 8.04pm, train dorang pown bertolak.. rasa sedih la pulak.. even aku xdela rapat ngan dorang but I can feel la the sadness member2 pompuan aku.. nak berpisah ngan kawan rapat, sapa x sedih.. lainla kalo secara zahir nampak mcm kawan rapat, but actually hipokrit.. ok, itu cerita bidang lain la...

before dorang nak berlepas tu, bykla jugak aku amik gambar.. nak test skill la kononye with my DSLR yg x seberapa ni.. maklumla, beginner la katakan.. amik gambar banyak2.. memang enjoy la.. especially masa kat platform.. perghhhhh~~~ lighting, surrounding, tempat sume kena.. memang cantik la kalo amik gmbr.. and aku happy gile la coz dpt tgkp shot dari pelbagai angle.. in fact, waktu tu suhu -15 kot.. mmg sejuk gile.. dah la tak pakai glove, bare hand exposed directly to surrounding.. serius, beku tangan aku!!! even masa nak masukkan tangan dlm poket pun tak dapat nak masukkan coz aku x dpt rasa apa2 with my hand.. PARALYZED!!! huhh.. itu yg aku rasa.. so, adalah member sorang ni, nama dia Azwan, pinjamkan aku glove dia.. huhhh.. baru rasa ok skit.. feel much better..

so, walaupun sedih, still memang enjoy coz dpt amik gmbr.. but the bad thing is, banyak gmbr yg useless... dahlah waktu malam plus tgn aku yg x steady lg nak hold camera and lens aku yg xda image stabilizer, banyak gambar hancusss!!!!! geram giler.. seriously.. I;m in urgent need at least a tripod.. rasa kecewa sgt coz angle gmbr dah cantik but SHAKING!!!!!!!!!! nak edit to sharpen pun dah x dpt................

anyway, adela jg certain pic yg sharp and considerably ok.. walaupun xdela nampak mcm pro, tp adela jg bibit2 untuk advance ke next level (perasan).. haha

ok, nak upload ke gmbr2 tu?

so.. ni la antara gambar dorang.. aku dah edit ni.. malas la nak upload satu2.. banyak kot.. dahlah saiz sume besar2.. byk lg sebenarnya.. kalo nak tengok penuh, pg Facebook Profile aku under album "Bye2 Volgorians + Train Station Photoshoot".. Tajuk album x bleh bla.. haha.. kalo yg nak tengok juga tp bukan friend aku, add la aku.. senang citer..

tp, antara semua pic tu, ni pic yg aku paling suka...

haha... ni la satu2nya gmbr aku pada malam tu.. comel, hensem n cute plak tu.. haha.. so, sapa2 nak berkenalan boleh je.. I'm halfly available (huhh???).. ok2.. itu merapu.. sorry..

by the way, renungkan..

"PERPISAHAN ITU MENYAKITKAN, NAMUN PENANTIAN LAGI MENYEKSAKAN.. OLEH SEBAB ITU, KITA DIUJI DENGAN KESABARAN DAN KEKUATAN.. INSYAALLAH DIPENGHUJUNGNYA DIAKHIRI DENGAN KEGEMBIRAAN"

so, that's it.. perpisahan dan penantian tu dah jadi permainan umum dalam kehidupan.. just that cara nak hadapi all these things yg vary between individual..

whatever it is, we're all will be back to Him..

till then..

~daa

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school sucks!!

it's already 6/01/2010.. new year feels just like yesterday..

but the truth, it's not.. it was 6 days ago..

so, what's up in these 6 days? well, in Malaysia, school has just started on 4th January for the new semester.. and surely, for new year.. and I am pretty sure that most of them who are welcomed to come back to school sighing (like I used to) for a very short holiday with a duration of 1 month +++.. 1 month? mind set calls it long but truthfully, it's not.. 1 month is very short... and the sigh is a must for everyone.. I know, school time sometimes can be so sucks.. you will only say it when you are still study on the same chair, table and class for 2 semesters, with almost the same routine every week, of course, lots of homework and tasks to be done, and sometimes you will curse and call the teachers with offensive words for doing some extra classes just to finish the whatsoever syllabus... exercises and assignments are totally shits, presentations are like hell and exams are totally nonsense and burdening.. and I know, you might say that the rules in school are just way too manipulative and strict and they limit your freedom.. and as a teenager, who is on the transition stage towards maturity, this is such a great battle, or might even worser than the World War 2.. "Rules are made to be broken".. This might sound familiar..

so there goes the total bullshit in school.. and everything ended once you finished the last paper of SPM or whatsoever public examinations.. and you feel like a bird, flying on the sky, leaving the suffer behind.. and yes, you are so free...

but...

when you begin to step on the real world, you find it even sucker than before.. you fight in the real battlefield.. you begin to learn the deeper meaning of the word struggle.. stress and tense are getting stronger.. life seems to be more complicated.. everyday is about facing challenges.. problems getting bigger, responsibilities get more and more, loads felt like heavier than a heavy stone and moving on sometimes is a question.... the rules are even tighter.. routine could come in variations but it is even completely burdening.... and when you feel all of this, you realize that you are now having the symptom of being adults...

then one day, you drive your car, passing by your old school, and you see kids are fighting childishly, with so much fun, as if the word problem is not even a word with definition..

YOU MISS SCHOOL TIME.. back then, it was a great thing to be in school uniform, facing all those shit things in school.. and you find out that school is a place of fun, a place where real friendship evolved, a place where you just learn everything about life...

Shit, Crappy, Hell, Orthodox Organization of Life..

that's what you may define school at that time..

but then, after you've been no longer in school, you begin to treasure what SCHOOL is all about..

when you are already a successful person, you might think that.....

SCHOOL is a "Sign-in to Culture for Hi-Performance Output of Life" School is suck but there you learn about something fun.. School is crap but you miss the happiness there..

School is Hell but is is actually a heaven .. School might be orthodox but later on you will miss it for being too modern in thinking demeanor.. And life is even better at that time..

An old friend of mine said that, "We are all kids at heart.. And kids study in school".. haha

so, to those who are still studying school, enjoy your time there because you're gonna miss it like HELL!!!!

there are lots more in my mind but enough for this.. hehe

till then~~

daa~~

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new buddy..

assalamualaikum w.b.t

anyway, who's my new buddy?

straight to the point, it's my new DSLR.. should I call it new? well, I bought in last year on the 18th of December (the phrase 'last year' denoted as if I've bought it like for such a long time ago).. today is the 17th day it is under my care.. but only today I make an official announcement through my blog.. well, nobody care I guess...

it is like a dream come true owing my own DSLR.. and frankly, never did I touch a DSLR for at least once in my life.. but why did I so eager to buy it? it's because of my interest with photography..

oo, it's a Canon EOS 1000D.. an entry-level DSLR..

before I bought it, I had two main problems..

1) I had two choices.. the first one is this one and the second choice is Nikon D3000.. both of these are entry-level cameras.. with just a little difference in price, that makes me even harder to choose and come to a conclusion.. so, i did a research.. I browsed many websites and forums, making comparison, looking through every single detail about each camera, looking through every sample pictures and even read reviews and opinions from random users.. it felt like conducting a serious research as if I were doing my thesis for PhD.. that's hyperbola.. but seriously, it's kinda serious and important to conduct research because this might include a big budget and I don't wanna regret at the end of the day.. my mind was fussed up.. totally.. what a hard decision to make since one thing might lead to the other.. and it's not just me.. there were even more people out there sitting at the same situation as mine.. firstly, I did really want Nikon D3000.. but as I went along with my research, I began to develop my interest with Canon EOS 1000D.. I asked my friend for their opinion, and most of them suggested that I should by Nikon.. then I asked, why? most of their reasons sounded like this 'Nikon is more popular, Nikon is better (how do you know it is better?), many people use Nikon and so on'.. then I asked them back, "so, what's wrong with Canon".. the only answer that they can give was , "Canon is quite good.. Up to you..".. so, asking them was like I was asking myself back since at the bottom line I didn't get the definite reason.. so, after doing research for quite some time, finally I chose Canon EOS 1000D.. so the same question again, "Why?".. well, this time I just followed my instinct.. basically, Nikon D3000 and Canon EOS 1000D, both have their own pros and cons.. if I explain in technical perspective here, it's gonna be a long post to read.. but in the end, buying one of it will not make you feel regret for not buying the other one because both of these cameras are destined to be rival to each other..

2) I got confused whether I should buy DSLR or follow the trip to Egypt at the end of this month.. so, it's more to financial problem because choosing one of it will surely defeat the other one.. I mean, I don't have enough budget.. so, I asked for opinions from my friend and even posted this confusion in my FB status "Antara DSLR or vacation?".. and in less than 2 hours, I received 61 comments.. what a standing ovation!! haha.. of course, there were some difference in opinions.. some asked me to buy DSLR, while some asked me to choose both, and some suggested me to go forward for the vacation and I can buy one later.. and some even suggested me to borrow others.. One of the best reviews suggested that I should go for vacation instead of buying DSLR because once I've bought it, the budget will keep on running and it won't stop just like that.. He said that after I own one, the next time I will have to make a decision whether I should buy a lens or follow vacation, and after that I will begin to consider whether I should go for a trip or buy a speedlight.. He even said that I should just buy it later in Malaysia and not to buy the entry -level one.. He suggested I should go for the intermediate level since it will be more money efficient.. As I've said before, one thing may lead to another..this was such a hard decision to make.. One of my friend said that, "Once you own it, you don't have to buy lenses or speedlight la.. The DSLR itself is enough".. Hmm, what a mouth you have!! I know that I'm surely going to be more into this because I'm a big fan of photography..

so, now that I already have it, does it mean that I should say goodbye to the vacation.. the answer is hell NOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! If I get the chance to travel, I will never skip it..

so, how about money? do I have enough? the answer is hell YES!! I found a solution to have them both.. and what't is it??? SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... secret.. hehe..

so, with this DSLR, I wish I can learn more about photography and enhance my skill..

I will strive for the best snapshot... at this point, photography is just my hobby... but I do hope that if the moment will come, it will be more than just a hobby.. or simply saying, I should go deeper into this field..

since this is just an entry-level DSLR, I don't expect for a very great photo quality.. I am just at the learning stage and that's it, don't expect more.. (azam tahun baru ~~ jgn expect lebih2.. nanti kecewa)

who knows if I can be a photographer later???? amin..............

till then

daa~~

(p/s: napa aku ni suka fikir benda yang tak sepatutnya difikirkan??)

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2009 part 2

so, hari ni dah 1/1/2010..

and secara rasminya, 2009 telah pun melabuhkan tirainya..

2009 was a great year for me.. sad and happy experiences came along the way, took their turn to accompany me.. sometimes depression would slide in.. but after that laughter would soothe me down.. barriers by barriers appeared and they taught me how to move on.. every day came with new things and the knowledge of life gained and gained..

2009 was kinda special and I spent it with extra 5 hours since Moscow time is 5 hours backward 0f Malaysian time.. so, it was 5 am in Malaysia when I celebrated new year.. not really a celebration.. just a nice sleep I guess..

2009 - a year of a circumference.. as one of the best year in my life, of course I do hope for something better ahead.. I feel so grateful to Allah s.w.t for his bless, giving me life and I got to see the beauty of life in 2009.. thank you Allah..

so, 2009 has finally ended..

no more 2009 after this as it waved us off yesterday.. but the memory will last forever.. something which can only be found in 2009..

GOODBYE 2009!! I will miss you.. :'(

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2009 part 1..

salam w.b.t

it's 30 december.. 2 days more to go for new year..

anyway, simply saying, hari ni aku rasa terharu and happy.. dua perasaan yg apabila dicampurkan akan membentuk precipitate perasaan yang hard to define.. *teringat biorg n gen. Chem*.. reasonS? xpa.. let me be the only one yg tahu..

walaupun skrg ni holiday, but gloomy mood tu tetap exist.. walaupun best, x yah stress study, still, klu kebosanan d exhibit potential energy yg tinggi *fizik la pulak*, kinetik enegry will be di tahap yang rendah.. so, kalau kurang kinetic energy, movement pun kurang, tu yang asyik melayan perasaan tu.. hahahahahaha..

so, sedar tak sedar, new year dah nak dekat.. 2009 ni bakal berakhir? sedih kan.. tambah2 lg, 2009 ni aku rasa best gilerr... so many unexpected things happened...

In less than 33 hours, we will reach the new year ~~ 2010.. resolution? haven't set one yet but of course, list does exist.. somehow, if I were to rate between happiness and sadness right now, sadness deserves more from me.. I don't know why but 2009 is one of the best year indeed in my life.. simply too many new things learnt and experience bounced over here and there.. wow, simply amazing!! all through from top to bottom, left to right, every circumference I've been went through, 2009 offers it all to my life and life becomes nearer to a level in which I appreciate my life very much.. soon, there will be no more a realistic 2009, but memory will play at its best so that they remain stored forever..

but the most important thing after all, it's Allah.. the bless of life from Him is the reason why we are still here today..

alhamdulillah..

ok till then~~

daa..

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